The Queen The King The Joker by the-orginal-blackwid, literature
Literature
The Queen The King The Joker
The queen and king are my masters
My job is to do their bidding
I try to hide my unhappiness with a smile
Laugh and smile all day long
Hiding behind a mask
Only my eyes tell the truth
My jokes make them laugh
With every joke I cry on the inside
Their Morale soars with every trick
While mine just sinks deeper into oblivion
They treat me like some dancing monkey
Make us laugh is all they say
I am forced to make them happy while stuck in this hell
I am just a pawn to their bidding
Forever stuck here with a tear in my eye
I am the Joker.
holding onto something is hard to do, everyone is trying to steal
everything. you got it, they want it. people kill for these things.
people have taken a lot from me.
my trust has been destroyed by people making promise's. people have
stole my emotions from me. i put them away and lost them inside
the hatred, i let go of every thing so they would have nothing to take.
i have nothing left now, but a heart of stone and not tears.
no love for anything or anyone. becouse they stole it all.
WHIPE YOUR EYES by the-orginal-blackwid, literature
Literature
WHIPE YOUR EYES
WIPER YOUR EYES EVEN THOUGH I AM DEAD, THAT IS NO REASON TO CRY.
FOR I AM HAPPIER WHERE I AM NO MORE FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE,NO MORE
FIGHT'S FOR WHAT I BELIEVE IN. THEIR'S NO ONE WHO WANT'S TO HURT
ME ANYMORE. FOR I HAVE LEFT THEM ALL BEHIND ME. I DO NOT FEEL PAIN
FOR I HAVE NO BODY TO FEEL IT ANYMORE. I DO NOT GET
SAD, OR DEPRESSED NOW. I AM HAPPY NOW. I FEEL FREE, FREE FROM MORTAL
CONFLICTS.FREE FROM THE MORTAL WORLD THAT KILLED ME.
WIPE YOUR EYES FOR I AM STANDING NEXT YOU, AND I PLAN ON NEVER
LEAVING YOUR SIDE
(08/02/03)
THEIR IS NO ESCAPING IT, NO MATTER HOW
STRONG YOU ARE YOU CANT WIN. THE DARKNESS
IS STRONGER THAT YOU. I HAD GOTTEN SO DEEP IN THAT HOLE.
I COULD NOT SEE THE SO CALLED GOOD IN ANYTHING. I DID NOT EVEN CARE, I
LIKE THE DARK, NOT SHOWING THE WORLD, IT WAS A HELL OF A LOT EASIER THAT WAY,
THEN YOU TOOK THE SAME PLUNGE, AND FELL INTO MY HOLE.
I HELPED, YOU HELPED ME, BUT YOU CLIMED MUCH FASTER THEN I DID.
YOU ASKED ME TO SHARE FEELING'S THAT I DID NOT EVEN KNOW I COULD HAVE,
YOU ASKED " DO YOU LOVE ME" IN RETURN I ASKED WHAT LOVE IS.
YOU ASKED WHY DONT I CRY. I ASKED WHAT CRYING IS. YOU SHOWED ME.
THEN I KNEW WHAT LOVE CRYING, E
hate everyone, is the was i thought for years. everyone hated me i was fine with that, i did not care. hate destroyed all if i had any fellings at one time. hate can destroy familys,homes, school's, lover's. but for me it destroyed my heart and soul everyone called me fat, sick that i was no good. that i was dumb that i could not do anything right, those words of hate are what made me who i am today
a promise to me , to each other, what does it really mean to make a promise to someone. to some a promise could be to love them forever. but guess what it's over fast as hell. why do we make suck promises like , i loved you theni love you know and i will alway's love you, or i will not let you die. i promise i will not leave if i get you pregnet. why do people make such promises when they know their's no way they can keep them. becouse the next day or maybe the next month they are broken
(note) no i am not pregent and i have never been so dont ask. ppl always do when they read this
I WISH I KNEW WHAT MADE ME LOVE THE THINGS I DO,
THE PEOPLE THAT HURT ME DAY AFTER DAY AND YET I STILL LOVE THEM.
WHY IS IT THAT POEPLE CAN BREAK PROMISES TPO ME TIME AND TIME AGAIN ,
AND I STILL LOVE THEM.
I WISH I COULD FIND WHATEVER THE THING INSIDE OF ME THAT MAKES ME LOVE SO I CAN
DESTROY IT.
bleedin in my arm's by the-orginal-blackwid, literature
Literature
bleedin in my arm's
this is something that i wrote after some one close to me was shot i wrote it in oct of 2002, its an old one but i wanted to put this old one and maybe acouple of other old ones up first befoe my new ones are to go up
A love poem
Oh sweet love, hold me closer
And whisper in my ear
Only the good things
I've been waiting all my life to hear them
Tell me about my smile because I can't seem to see things like you do
Tell me how my eyes shine like diamonds in the moonlight
Tell me my hair is soft as silk as you run your fingers through it
Tell me my laugh is like the music of angels
Kiss me softly and tell me that you care
Blind me to all the darkness in you
Give me a false hope to hold on to
Because I never want to let go of this
So tell me I'm the only one, even when there are others
And tell me that I'm special when I don't really matter
Tell
Never how I felt so much loss
In so little time
I find it hard to sing
Outside I taste the frigid air
That stupid look
You think you found the right hook
She doesn't fit you
You're too small to hold her
This hate will go away when I have closure
When you run out of breath
So I can stand above you with a smile
I hope nightmares catch up to you
I curse your doomed courtship
This won't even matter
I've never been better
Never hated so much
Never wanted to strangle you
I held you so high
But I'm crashing you down
And I don't want this
I wish I never laid eyes on you
Now our lives have become your own
My heart lies deadly cold; not a single vibration of life
And the blood that you said was yours stagnates through my lifeless body
I lie awake; porcelain eyes still absurdly open
Tears falling down ghostly white skin;
How can I even fucking begin...
You took what was me and fucking threw it away!
You've left my shattered pieces poisoned with the choices you made
You took all your promises; choked them of life!
Now I know everything you fucking said was a lie
You left my thoughts intoxicated with antitrust!
I wonder if this past 6 months was nothing but fucking lust...
All this happiness was a res
Current Residence: cali Favourite genre of music: any metal or death metal bands Operating System: xp or something Shell of choice: my head phones Wallpaper of choice: black Skin of choice: tattooed skin and pierced Personal Quote: I would never want to be a member of a group whose symbol was a guy nailed to two pieces of wood.
Favourite Movies
house of a 1000 corpses and what dreams may come i cant pick
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
vile rob zombie
Favourite Writers
poe
Tools of the Trade
those who know me know and those who dont figure it out on ur owen
i have neve been this behind i just got back today from hawaii, family vaction lol god was it fun but it was also hell. being next to my family for 6 hours on a plain u can only grasp what it was like lol oh well time for me to check up and put some new pic s and poems up of everyone to see.,
ok first my transmition ion my car blew up it was sitting next to me in my car no joking it was. i have a job now it pays 40 bucks a night in cash no taxes so thats cool, i just got my net back , my mom took my cell and smashed it with a hammer so i plan to go get my owen soon, my uncle is coming out in acouple of weeks so i get to sleep in the front room again man that piss's me off . my mom wont let us have xmas so no familoy get togeather i mean its a good think i wont have a shitty break nad all but it sucks becouse my greatgrandpa is 93 and he is diein now . so i dont know what we are going to tell him, my mom took all the pres back oh w
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Obsessive-Compulsive: High
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